I woke from the dream world this morning and spent a few moments recalling the series of events that unfolded in that last dream before awakening. I had been with a group of individuals at a symposium and each attendant was offered an opportunity to give a presentation. At the last moment of preparation for my presentation it occurred to me that my well organized plans were going to fall short of my expectations. I decided to make the best of the situation by simply telling a story of how grateful I am to live a life of service to humankind.
Inside the delivery, I recalled one of my favorite Vandorn Hinnant quotable quotes: “ let your life be an act of giving so that giving shall be forever yours.”
In Jim Henson’s opus magus, The Dark Crystal, we are given deep insight into life’s perpetual inclination towards equilibrium. This eternal striving is exemplified in the form of the mystics and the scarcies; two clans living at the extreme opposite of one another in thoughts and actions. These polar opposites exist as representations of the nature of duality. There is a lesson embodied in this story for those wishing to find peace with what is.
There is an old saying that i learned in school as i was studying at NC A&T University. It was presented in the context of a class with a focus on design principles. The quote, FORM FOLLOWS FUNCTION, is said to have been passed down through a lineage of European designers. When thinking of this idea today, it appears to be true in regards to life in general. Each function precedes the form taken to realize the function.
Several days ago, AnaMaria and I were visiting the artist retreat center AZULE in Hot Springs NC. We spent four hours in conversation with the originator and care taker of this most special center. At one point in the conversation, I recalled and spoke the words “form follows function” and our hostess, Camille, quickly recognized the relevance of that concept. She had encountered the concept early in life as a student. The tour of the facility was one completely awe inspiring experience. Camille shared with us much of her awe inspiring life’s story. AnaMaria and I left there overjoyed. In that visit, we had been gifted something that this writing is attempting to speak to. One can live an inspired life where every breath is breathed with the intent to be of service to humankind. I do not know of a higher calling.
These words are a sketch of an idea that wants very much to be expanded upon. I am not certain this will occur. I am trusting these few highlights can be read and experienced as somehow connected to one another.
“FORM FOLLOWS FUNCTION “
inspired to inspire, I AM Vandorn
About Vandorn Hinnant
Vandorn Hinnant; painter, sculptor, poet, and educational consultant resides in Durham NC, USA. He leads hands-on experiential workshops on “The Geometry of Art and Life” for learners of all ages. “The geometries employed in my work embody the mathematics of matter, energy, space, and time and are in resonance with the dynamic and generative forces of Nature; growth.” Learn more at vandornhinnant.com
We are moving through a time of great conflict and turmoil in our outer world that is rising up our own inner conflict and turmoil to be aired out of the Earth of our bodies. These are times in which we are called to activate the medicine of our own path more fully and with greater integrity in relationship with all of life.
This Full Moon is in the same sign of Aquarius for both Tropical and Sidereal Astrology, which is fairly rare since there is a 24-degree discrepancy between them. There is a uniting of differences and being able to look from a similar perspective in service to collective liberatory leadership that is balanced by the fiery heart centered expression from the Sun, Mars and Mercury in Leo. If you are new to the difference between these astrological forms, I suggest looking up Sidereal Astrology and learning how your birth chart could be 24 degrees different from what you may have thought it was. I see Sidereal Astrology as a more embodied form of astrology that shows us a map of the soul’s journey since it is aligned with the actual constellations in the sky. Tropical is more associated with our ego’s relationship to the cultural construct. Both are helpful for us to understand, and I feel that it’s important to know about our Sidereal chart in order to support our soul’s growth in this lifetime in relationship with the Cosmos.
My journey has shown me that the body is a source of great wisdom and medicine in many forms, which I have learned from so many traditions, practices and modalities. And we are all called to be willing to feel the conflict, the challenges, and pain in order to harvest the benefits of our a-tension as it releases through the expression of our hearts. Bringing attention to the tension allows for the emergence of new life to arise through the release. And with all aspects of life this can be true if we are willing to allow change and to be continually learning from what emerges and comes our way.
Through noticing how our body systems are related to the Earth systems, Solar system and beyond through the elements we can reunite ourselves with the cycles of life as above, so below and find greater guidance and balance. I invite you to join me in this Cosmic Heart Embodiment journey of reuniting ourselves with all of life through this very body in deep reflection and reception with the Cosmos. This is a deepening connection with yourself and therefore all of life that has been guiding me over the last decade and that is calling to be shared with others as I bring my practices together in service to our collective awakening.
If you feel called to learn more and to journey together please do reach out for a discovery session to get to know each other. I’m also offering a free Activate Your Medicine workshop for the New Moon on September 8th 7-8:30pm EST
About Hilary
Hilary Lake, MDiv, RSMT/E is an Expressive Arts Community Minister who helps people align with their bodies, values and path in enlivening ways. She graduated from Harvard Divinity School with an MDiv in Buddhist Ministry and is a somatic movement therapist and educator as well as Sidereal Astrologer. For more information about Hilary and to sign up for the Activate Your Medicine workshop: www.movingingrace.com
Today’s Full Moon is in Aquarius, the second one in a row for this sign making it a true blue moon. A blue moon occurs when the moon is full twice in a sign (not just in a month as is often the understanding).
This Full Moon is an opportunity to use your head to better understand the needs of your heart. You have the ability to reflect on what is working and what is not working, and to make decisions that create better alignment with your soul’s highest purpose.
Aquarius, an air sign, is mental, progressive and community minded. Aquarius looks out for the good of the group. Leo, a fire sign, helps us express ourselves. It is all about personal empowerment. With a close conjunction to Jupiter, at this Full Moon we find ourselves desiring to expand our sense of freedom.
The tension arises when we attempt to claim our freedom at the expense of someone else’s. Although this may gives us some temporary sense of control, it is not real freedom. In this case, we will always be at the mercy of the other, always needing to demand conformity and acquiescence to our will.
Freedom lies somewhere between personal desire and social response-ability. If we become too polarized, one way or another, the balance is disrupted. We may become overly passive to the will of the group and lose ourselves, never willing to take a stand for anything. Or, at the other end, we may become selfish and oppositional, refusing to consider anything beyond our own opinions and beliefs, no matter who is harmed in the process.
Instead, true freedom must be found within. We must begin the process of disentangling our self worth and value from the web of group belonging and acceptance. We must, at some level, be willing to follow the path that is meant for our footsteps alone. Upon discovering ourselves, free and empowered, we can then lead others to truth.
This isn’t to say that we forsake the group. Rather, we must see that we are not separate from it. Only then can we take response-ability for what we bring to the whole without compromising our authenticity.
It is when we see the other as an extension of ourselves that love can truly flow and we can take our true place within the circle of life. Then, our beings come to rest upon the inner light of the illumined heart, instead of the fragility of the illusory ego. Then, true freedom can be discovered.
About Elizabeth Jezorski
Elizabeth Jezorski is a Yogini and spiritual teacher living on the coast of Maine. Liz draws upon modalities of astrology, movement, psychology and yoga to midwife the soul into wholeness and authenticity.
Warmed in the armpit of her sincere, profound, loving embrace. I found myself often raptured in my own resistance to seeing myself in the face of one so awake and enlightened. The greatest gift any one has ever given me, the taste of my infinite potential, the remembrance of the ancient one that sings from inside of me, the smell of the sacred smoke blown from the prayer pipe of our ancestors. There are no words for the way my Spirit Grandma has affected my life, only expressions of what I’ve consciously, and subconsciously soaked up, processed and am now regurgitating out from the creative source within. I now walk with teachings that are preciously wrapped in my medicine bundle, they are gently unraveled as i blossom into deeper understanding of what these teachings mean to me, and how they can serve the good of all life everywhere. Often i sit and remember these teachings, the wisdom fills my being with warmth, offering an opportunity to realign with what rings true in me … The prayers, the reflections, the stories, the smiles .. My moments with grandma have imprinted me so deeply, that i am never separate from them, rather as i walk in integrity to my own truth, i hear the ringing of her teachings rippling throughout existence, emanating from my own heart through the unique expression of my soul. In the higher planes of dimension I prayed for her, and she came. She held my hand and our hands dissolved into the surrounding space .. in that moment i received the realization, there is no real separation, I am this grandmother i have prayed for, and she is me. It has taken the time un till now to see that the very essence of her teaching, was the first message i received, without a word. From the deepest part of me, i am eternally grateful, for the tears that have poured, the confusion that has stormed, the laughter that has exploded and the force that has moved all resistance into a desire to persist on this medicine path. Deep healing has occurred, and every step is influenced by the sweet salve of truth she has anointed me with. My grandmothers spirit echoes into space as iinvoke her presence. She brings the strong fierce love of Mama Grizzly, the impeccability, integrity and fierceness of. Jaguar, and the tender, compassionate, ancient feminine wisdom of grandmother turtle. Oh yeah, and the crazy, unpredictable, ridiculous and hilarious medicine of Coyote. So, if you bundle all that up in a buffalo hide turquoise heart embroidered medicine pouch, cover it in a nice chunk of grass fed butter and warm it in the sun .. You’ve found your self a precious grandmother, doing some real deep work on the planet, laughing, dancing and praying beings into freedom from ancestral gunk, deeply seeded fears, disconnection from source, separation from true essence, lack of will power and confusion. So if that doesn’t inspire you to book an online session 😉 That’s okay, for we are all sovereign beings, walking our sacred path and manifesting our sacred dream, in our own, unique way. But as a rising youth, I see the urgency in our awakening … I see the importance of listening to our elders, and the elder within. I see the potential in our Wild hearts, unifying for the same vision of peace, love and freedom. I feel us remembering the heartbeat of our earth mother, as we gather in circle, playing our drums. Trust in the flame within, and fuel it with TRUTH, for our remembrance, and commitment to truth is the medicine we are praying for. I know the importance of honoring our elders, and honoring all life. I have been blessed with the knowing that all life is sacred, and we truly are all connected. Thank you Abuelita, Grandmother Kaariina .. for everything you have shared with me. For all our relations. The well being of all life everywhere, is the root of my motivation.
When I was younger I was afraid of intimacy and would often avoid it, not just with people but in classes or practices that were of an intimate nature. I had not felt safe inside of my body and had largely shut down my sexuality because of it. I didn’t have a mother, and my relationships were the opposite of nurturing. I learned to shut down and in doing so I learned to survive.
Yet, I found myself studying women’s herbal medicine and vitality, painting wombs and goddesses and crafting clay yonis. I surprised myself when I chose my herb school thesis to be on women’s health and treatments for STD’s, and vibrational remedies for sexual abuse.
I was being led through the portal of the womb. I didn’t know I was being called by it, but my actions showed me that I was. Although I resisted it at times the pull became undeniable. It asked me to face my own traumas and brought me into my voice, my truth and the depths of my own healing.
I know many of you are called to the womb, to either your own or perhaps to support other women and womb carriers on their healing journey.
Here are 12 signs you are being called:
You have survived sexual trauma
You have symptoms and/or pain with your cycle
You are called to honor your blood
You feel closed down to your sexuality
You feel disconnected from your body
You feel a lack of belonging
You are an empath
You have an aversion to sensual activities
You avoid intimacy
You are emotionally sensitive
You feel a block when trying to connect to your womb
There is repeating generational or ancestral traumas
Have you ever experienced having an aversion to the thing that would help you the most?
The journey into the womb is a spiral, ever expanding and contracting. There is no end.. only a deepening. And, no matter where you are on your journey to the womb, you are not alone.
What is life without pursuit? Yet, to pursue is not what brings something to you. It is coming into vibrational alignment that does it, according to master coach, Abraham Hicks.
How did I get here? I ask myself. Construction Supervisor. Aren’t I just a singer, a girl with a dream to perform on large stages? Do I really need to learn to build them in order to perform on them? It feels like double duty. What am I missing? Did I manifest this or is this predetermined?
I have a hard time saying no. Is this my version of saying yes to it all and finding a way to make it all work out without having to put forth rejection? Experiencing rejection is one of my worst fears; but am I really proving anything by doing this, by showing up for this nearly unmanageable workload?
Singing sets my life on fire. Sets it into water. Sets it onto earth. I breathe it. Will I work in construction forever? I hope to design music studios and restore concert halls and tell myself this nearly everything day so that I can muster up the energy to keep going. After all, we all need a job, right? A way to sustain myself. But does it have to be so extreme? I just want to sing. I want to sing and pour my heart, body, mind and soul into everything I do. That’s it. That’s what I’m here for. That much I know. So where does time management and accountability fit into all this? And what about saying no? This is what I would like to know.
So, I think, to reconcile all this, I will design a microphone stand of construction tools, you know, so that I remember where I am
sourcing financial stability. This stability provides me a budget as a producer which then allows me to support many other artists. I think what I am looking for is a greater return to match, sustain and grow my output. Is it possible to increase my income exclusively in the arts. How, if at all? Am I doing the right thing? What is right? I think this is right.
And my last note, I have found that DHEA caplets; and, liquid ginkgo biloba and fulvic minerals added to water, daily, helps with my ability to focus and retain information. By default, the reward system in my brain and bodily systems frequently lights up; and so my anxiety has lowered, self-confidence and self-trust have gone up.
If you have read this, thank you. If you are feel discouraged or overwhelmed, acknowledge those feelings, write it out, meditate, find that discipline and consider evaluating your food and supplement intake to support what you envision for yourself in greatest vibrational alignment that lights you up.
How many times have we truly experienced the fierce and wrathful expression of a grizzly bear mother? One who would stand in the face of her own death for the sake of her cubs? A Red Tara with wrathful knowingness, pointing her left hand to the Earth’s heart, index finger sharply indicating that enough is enough! A mother who rushes across a neighbourhood street in northern Ontario, old fashioned broom in her raised hand, shouting to an addled young man, “Do not bully my daughter! Stop now!”
There are those times, my beloveds, to resurrect that fierce all-knowing ONENESS consciousness, put away childish beliefs, look at the shadows in the mirror, and realize that what most of us are experiencing and expressing these days are echoes of dysfunctional family dynamics from the past. And thus, what an opportunity we have right now on planet Earth to complete these karmic cycles with strong intentions, clear inner-sights, and courage to grieve and re-emerge as a New Earth inhabitant who lives with the embrace for all our relations.
These are, in my heart’s deep acceptance, times to put away desires to belong to those dysfunctional family dynamics and to declare oneself born a swan amongst ducks. These are times to rest at the roots of great Gaian trees, be fed and nurtured by the whoooo of the owl song and the screech of the hawks as messengers from higher realms. These are the times to capture the essences of flowers and offer the waters, Ma Wa Chi, blessings from Grandfather Beautiful Painted Arrow. Targeting our arrows of intentions with respect and permission, we say: Guru Deva of waters and flowers, bless these waters with pure love! Flower devas, offer our signatures to these blessed waters that our gifts may flower in service to the whole Earth garden.
In this summer of the northern Hemisphere and winter of the southern hemisphere, we have the opportunity to clarify and declare: This is my heart’s no and this is my heart’s yes! And to stand deeply rooted in Earth wisdoms, trusting with crystal clarity that the yes and the no require no justification; rather, a firmly centred and embodied presence for the sake of our children and grandchildren.
This is a profoundly wonderous time to share that poem of Rumi:
Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I’ll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass, the world is too full to talk about. Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form. Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion. The wound is the place where the Light enters you. Be melting snow. Wash yourself of yourself. Let the waters settle and you will see the moon and the stars mirrored in your own being. Why do you stay in prison when the door is so wide open? Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love. Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along. – Rumi
Thus, those negative and limiting images—embodied and buried in our bodies so long ago—finally resurrect into this lightning of a daytime and thundering of a nighttime of soul—for us to stop acting so small! To return to the SOURCE of the clear light of our two-legged nature is to finally see that the door has been wide open for generations.
When we render (with great self mercy) the effects of our ignoring that we are at cause of our experience, that we are a part of the continuum of Rivers of Lifetimes, we realize with an aaah that we are the change we so desperately want in this world.
Resting within this fiercely held embrace of Om Tara, red and brandishing her wrathful sword of truth, we can relax within our inner innocent child selves. No worries. We can build those inner bridges of trust from neuron to neuron and synchronize with those already in love, already released from human-created prisons funded by a paradigm of right-wrong, good-bad, lesser-greater, for better or for worse. These paradigms of duality continue to generate splits in the psyche, what others would call schizophrenia. Truth tellers, however, would describe this split as a choice-point where the fear of truth telling is so great that one hides the core of the message one is born to share.
Erika Merz, of Rise Up with H’ART, offers an image of the truth speaker for this full moon July time on Earth. Truth speakers are the innocent ones who see only what is and speak it. My daughter, Kirsti Conway, was three when we were at the checkout line at Steinberg’s grocery store in Ottawa, Ontario. An overweight woman caught in her somatic prison was moving sideways through the checkout line. The foods she piled up on the moving belt were indicative of what she resourced to disguise her pain. Kirsti asked, “Mom, why is that lady so fat?” Hmmming, my heart responded, “Because she chooses to hide the messages she was born to share.” “Oh,” spoke the innocence of children.
Truth Seeker image by Erika Merz
How do parents move beyond the reward and punishment of duality and become adventurously truthful within intimate and familial relationships?
Like my mother before me, I chose to break the limitations of negative images and beliefs. Hellin Marjatta Huuki Sorkki, Hautala Saarinen, said no, this ends with me! This sexual abuse of woman and mother, this bullying by a young boy-man or husband or father—this ends with me! Though it did not begin with me. I said no and expanded the truth-telling web into my two marriages and through my seven love affairs. I said yes to the lover that lives within and released my soul from seeking externally for approval, love, a sense of belonging, that financial security through a man. And my life stream has never been the same.
The status quo was questioned by my mother, paternal grandmother, daughter, and son. And even my two husbands broke through from familially defined prisons of beliefs and explored other dimensions as well. When I finally met with the most Venerable Namgyal Rinpoche of the Dharma Centre of Canada, I was met with the mirror of one who awakens others. Self mastery meant that to one’s own self, be true. “Be truthful” was the legacy of one of my precious elders, Carol Hiltner, of Seattle, Washington, and of Altai Mir, Siberia. “Kaariina, be truthful.”
Hmmmmming, now. Just imagine what would our intimate relationships sound like, feel like, taste like, smell of, when the choice-point is met fully? To be truthful and speak from this fearless inner ground? What would awaken within each of us within that embrace? And how would that ripple through wombs and seeds of groins into the fetuses of our children, through our labouring and delivery of New Earth star seeded children?
Would that delivery and the following healthy nourishment of those children guide our visions, clarify our values, core essences, and beliefs; our very thoughts, speech, and actions; to another time-space line for millions? Would the sunrise be met by our Buddhaic mindfulness and return us to equality? For does this sun not shine equally for all sentient beings, including four-leggeds, winged and singing ones, insects and amphibian ones, turtles of great patience in all four directions, and those great and small finned ones of seas and oceans?
Would that not be a shift of inner and outer frequency to an Earth-based Herzog resonance allowing us to leave the wars behind at long last?
When did we forget that parenting is the primary universal education of all souls? How did parents become so paralyzed that our children and grandchildren’s great spirits and genius have become less important than externalized wealth and accumulation of assets? The spiritual legacy from our ancestors has become burdened by limited images of what it is to be human and a child of the universe.
How did we fail ourselves when we embraced sexual and love partners without answering the greater calling—responsibility for the future cradleboard of family, tribe, village, planet, and this universe? And now, children of this universe have been masked, their souls’ purposes to awaken us to our truth-telling suffocated, sorely punished when they do not follow the boss of external authority.
Hmmmming. Why did we forget the Sacred Laws of conscious co-creation, and seek revenge rather than reconciliation for our differences? And feed the white male patriarchal legal and medical systems rather than our elders and Earth wisdom rites of passages?
These are what one might say are big inquiries that require big lives in which to live into the answers. Pathfinders and way-showers are amongst every single one of us. We can choose another lens and view those around us (even our own parents and grandparents) and be inspired to witness single moments of courageous fierceness. We can stop our own littleness from viewing ourselves as “poor me,” frightened of external authorized prisons, and rehabilitate our souls to purposes that do no harm. One single step and moment at a time.
A Practice
List those moments of transformation from fear to love. Create a checklist of 15 folks alive, dead, known, unknown, personally or not, who inspire another view or value for your heart. Now list beside each name what you admire about that being. Even step into fierce boldness and say yes! Send them a bouquet of flowers, a hand-created card, an email or message, and say yes! This is how your life rippled into my own. And I want you to know how grateful I truly am.
From the centre of our own mandalas of our lives, sit and ripple from our open hearts to the hearts of thousands of others, being within the sphere of unconditionality and say: Thank you for the yes of your way-showing. Gratitude for the no of your stand which is a stand for humanity’s spirits rising together. I am humbled by your fierceness to say “enough is enough” and “no to doing harm to selves, partners, children, grandchildren, the wilderness of this great Pachamama.” Thank you with humour and humility for sharing your gifts and embracing so many beings. Thank you.
For a few more moments, imagine what the world needs and receives through your willingness to live truthfully from your core of being and wild hearted essence, what that ripple is now? And how ripples meet other ripples to become a wave. And imagine what these waves become as the waters of this full moon of July 2021 holds us in the Aquarian water bearer’s embrace.
Khalil Gibran offers these words on children:
Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself. They come through you but not from you, And though they are with you, they belong not to you. You may give them your love but not your thoughts, For they have their own thoughts. You may house their bodies but not their souls, For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams. You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday. You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth. The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far. Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness; For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable. – Khalil Gibran, from The Prophet
In community, NikiAnne Earthaven Ecovillage Member Co-Director at Earthaven Ecovillage’s School of Integrated Living (SOIL)
Maybe you’re a sensitive soul, like me. Or a deep thinking one.
For folks like us, telling the truth about our world, like how its tendencies towards extractive, consumptive, and irreverent behaviors can be disheartening, actually brings some relief.
Congruence between words and actions actually helps to settle my nervous system. It reminds me that I’m not crazy.
Terence McKenna once said:
“We have to create culture, don’t watch TV, don’t read magazines, don’t even listen to NPR. Create your own roadshow. The nexus of space and time where you are now is the most immediate sector of your universe, and if you’re worrying about Michael Jackson or Bill Clinton or somebody else, then you are disempowered, you’re giving it all away to icons, icons which are maintained by an electronic media. That is all cultural diversion, and what is real is you and your friends and your associations, your highs, your orgasms, your hopes, your plans, your fears. And we are told ‘no’, we’re unimportant, we’re peripheral. You want to reclaim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers.”
To that end, I’d like to personally invite you to a dinner and storytelling event with Doug Elliott, well-known storyteller, humorist and naturalist! His Wild Tales – Strange but True Adventures in the Natural World is happening June 18, 2021, on our very own Village Green.
We are lucky to call Doug Elliott a neighbor, as he lives not far from Earthaven Ecovillage, but he’s famous far beyond these parts for his love of the natural world and his stories for children and adults. Learn more about him on his website.
This event is part of our attempt to reweave our strands of stories into the tapestry that is a land-based and place-based life.
I have fully crossed over twice in my life… Here is the story of the second time:
My consciousness fully departed from this physical Earth plane. And I crossed over “to the other side”
Like a lucid dream, My spirit flew through all dimensions, time & space. However, “the conscious I” was a fully awake traveler, On a Soul Quest to remember why we/I chose to come here– to Earth in the first place. My body system paused for what felt like an eternity. I went on a journey into the unknown & was, indeed, able to “see it all” without any filters. I received an answer to some of life’s biggest questions. Why are we here? What is the purpose of this life? These questions were indeed, the quest-i-was-on!
I saw the interconnected web of the universe, the oneness within all of existence, the cosmic soup where all belongs, where the heartbeat of sentient beings dwells, where eternal love & ultimate belonging awaits. Where all knowledge & information is drawn from. Where the Source of all energy generates. Where there is NO ego. No separation. No form. No identification. No compartmentalization. Every-thing existed, all as one fluid consciousness.
And as glorious as it seemed to ascend into the etheric field of Akashic bliss, I felt immense heartbreak to abandon Earth. I saw that within this physical body there was a golden opportunity. I remembered why I am here. Now. In this body, with this mind. With this ego. Form. Identification. Compartmentalization. I saw the purpose. The Plan. I saw that Earth is ONE of the only places– where our soul gets to experience– this living-breathing, highly intelligent, sovereign body.
And as mundane as it sometimes seems walking this Earth, I remembered in this moment that felt like eternity, that our souls– deliberately chose this chance to reside Earth-side . With ecstatic excitement. With overwhelming honor. With a problem to solve. For the sake of simply existing, as a human experiencing the possibilities of form & expression. In all of its colors, shapes, sizes, trials & triumphs. With one focused determination: To mold this matter. To transform this matter. To reconfigure this matter. To texture this matter. Make a WORK OF ART with this matter. That’s it…. We are simply here to make art– with this Earthly matter.
It turns out, that anything & everything we do, is art. A relationship, a house, a craft, a skill, a hobby, a job, a pursuit, an adventure, a lifestyle, a child. It is all Art. It is all Creation being expressed through us. And On Earth, we get this rare opportunity to be the artist of– our specific life. Allowing streams of consciousness to move through us with rapturous glory, & Our body is the holy temple where Source gets to express itself in this individualized way… I saw from a Universal perspective that the chance to be in a human body, on Earth is like hitting Creation’s jackpot!
In that very moment, As my soul saw through the veils that cause us to forget, I realized this individualization is not a curse, but a blessing, unique to Earth.
I compared & I contrasted, the true difference between form & formless. The intelligence of both. The magnificence of both. And with ONE DEEP BREATH OF LIFE into my spiritless body I made the conscious choice, To return to Earth with a new eagle point of view, with refreshed enthusiasm & thrill to choose a mission unique to me.
My Spirit returned to my avatar body. I understood forgetfulness in a whole new light. I returned with a new sense of pleasure & delight to simply create an art piece with my life.
I now carry with me eternal gold from the other side.
From this experience of crossing over, Let me tell you, there is no other place in the universe quite like this planet. So may we learn to embrace each magical, mysterious moment in this earthly form with whole-hearted passion for this miracle of life. The RE-membering is a RETURN to the appreciation to BE alive & breathing. A reclamation of This chance to be A human– being & doing. A reclamation of One’s full embodied permission to be a conduit of source. Because our soul, truly loves this opportunity to create, ART On Earth.
May your art be wild. May your art be holy. May you be the vessel to bring through the next octave of possibility.
WILD + HOLY VESSEL Online Course starts Monday, May 31st. Join us
We welcome you to sit and enjoy this replay, enjoy and immerse in the energy from this circle of incredible women. Will you join us next?
Mother of Death Wombs of Light, May 2021
Hello beautiful souls, Wowowowow! That was such a POWERFUL few hours of togetherness and remembrance with you all, and to those who will catch the replay, I am very excited for you and the medicine that lies ahead! I feel so grateful for the opportunity to gather with initiated Elders who hold the wisdom of their lived experience with the youth, and who cherish truth above all.
Crossing Over & the Choice to Return 
