By Tina Marie Smith
As a child I knew there was much joy and wonder in the wild world and that there were fun and magical helpers that were eager and happy to spend time with me! Hours disappeared as I danced and shared belly laughs with my friends under the big Oak tree that stood at the very edge of our yard. A day came when I was made fun of and was told that I was too old to have “imaginary friends”. With the strong desire to be accepted I immediately let those magical little friends go. That is where my journey of disconnection and reconnection began. The journey from ignoring my connection to answering the call and retrieving my wild heart and soul.
My quest to belong and to be accepted began. A quest that I was determined to succeed at, even though it meant stifling my innate knowing and my personal values. I went to college and then worked in the field of social services. My parents and loved ones were proud of me. My colleagues and clients sang praises and as rewarding as it was, I was suffocating in the very box that I had very consciously created. A box I built to be a valued member of society.
The realization came that it was time for new ACTION! I connected with my Spirit Helpers and asked for signs and guidance. An opportunity arose. A trip to the wild lands of Northern Ontario where I heard the call.
As I drew closer to my destination of Wawa Ontario, I could feel my Spirit expand like new life was being breathed into my body. The faces of the Rock people were abundantly clear, offering me a welcome that brought tears to my eyes. The Hummingbirds surrounded me and shared their dances of joy and happiness. There were Farey Rings in the many places I visited, inviting me to come dance and laugh with the little ones again! The Trees eagerly shared their vitality with me. An Eagle showed me that my prayers for direction were being heard, and the Ravens surrounded me everywhere that I travelled, assuring me that magical things were in the making!
Reconnected and filled with joyous curiosity, there was no doubting that these Wild Lands were to be my new home!
Summer turned into Autumn, and I relocated to my newfound home in Wawa Ontario a 1000kms away from my birthplace and my birth family. There has not been one moment of regret. By acknowledging the signs of the wild world and answering the call I have reconnected with my “imaginary friends”, and to my playful heart and Spirit. I am revitalized and expansive again. When that little girl of mine shows up with that old desire to belong, I take her to play outside and remind her that we are safe and supported here by the love and power of the Wild Ones, that we are at home.
Tina Marie Smith is a certified Usui Reiki Master, Meditation facilitator, and Soul Resonance Practitioner. The work she does assists others to reconnect with their Souls passions and purpose to help raise the vibration of Individuals, Humanity and the beautifully generous Earth that we walk on.
Photo credit (photo of me doing Reiki by Wawa Lake) to James Smedley of James Smedley Outdoors
Contact Information:
tinasmith931@gmail.com, Facebook: Reiki and Meditation with Tina
P.O. Box 282, Wawa On. P0S 1K0, 705 852 0862
Thank you for sharing your journey Tina. I felt alot of the same things when I first came to the north. Was welcomed by an eagle flyby and knew at that moment this was going to be my new home. May your path always lead you to peace, understanding, and oneness with Mother Earth.